♥Tuesday, November 18, 2008
part I:i almost forgot that i had this blog again ^^; somehow i really think that me & blogs do not get along haha. lots & lots of things have happened over these past few weeks, and i shall blog about them one by one :D
firstly, my grandfather passed away. yup, he passed away at 6.28am on monday, 10th november in the hospital. i'm really thankful that he's out of his pain & suffering and hopefully he's looking down at me from heaven with my other grandfather (: because he accepted Christ! Thank God for that. but the funeral was a taoist one, and it was so different from my other grandfather's funeral, which was a simple Christian funeral.
For my other grandfather, during the wake we just had service every night and stuff. But for Taoist funerals, there are loads and loads of rituals to go through and i didnt understand a single thing. and rank is very important, and because i was the 外孙, i was the lowest rank and at the back. i didn't understand the whole thing, but if i did, i think i'd be even more upset because when my aunts and dad told me what those priests were saying during the rituals, its really really sad, like my grandfather is going to cross the bridge, but he can't bear to when he sees the rest of us crying behind him.
but i have one complaint. we didnt cremate my grandfather at Mandai Crematorium this time, but at some temple place and it was so darn fast! its like one minute i was on my knees paying my respect to my grandfather, the next minute i saw a huge flame and the coffin is gone. and since i was at the back, i couldn't see a single thing. I didnt even get to say my last goodbye to my grandfather or mentally prepare myself! Mandai crematorium is so much better. but i will just take comfort in the fact that he is in heaven now and out of his suffering, and that i will see him again soon (:
the next thing on my list: prom! man, makeup for prom was a disaster! i went to amanda's aunt's salon to do and they have just permanently turned me off makeup. seriously. i sat there for like two hours getting tortured as they redid and redid my makeup over and over again! they plucked my eyebrows, put fakeeyelashes, gave me green eyeshadow when i said no to all these! horrible people. the only thing i was happy about was my hair. cause they just straightened it :D
prom itself was fun, and we had loads of fun seeing who wore what :D all the girls looked really really pretty and the prom queen and king of the night were sheila and kundan. dinner was okay, but it was more fun sitting at the table and crapping haha. there's not much i can say for prom, so i shall just let the pictures explain :D
first picture of the night! :D yingsi's picture is clearer, but its really dark
me & chris :D he went around taking pictures with everyone haha
with sheila! prom queen + my lovely guitar mate :D
with alicia :D
daphne! my lovely kino buddy + jap buddy :D speaking of kino, i need her to go with me again soon xD
with yijun & yingsi! i love these two girls (:
my partner in taking care of autistic children xD
kenneth with the newmoon hamper he won from lucky draw xD
the humanities people next year from v14! three only, i know.
we love camwhoring in the toilet :D we went to the toilet countless of times haha
kw with the ferrero rocher he won for our whole table :D
me & germaine :D
thailand trip people! :D i love these people :D when will we have our outing! haha
me & amanda :D
class photo with ms chia & laoshi :D
HAHA we met laoshi in the toilet :D
they gave each of us a rose! :D
me & joann :D we always end up in the same group haha!
with xinying, the crazy girl :D
me & dear shuyi! :D
he said he posed as the gentleman in this picture xD
07v14 girls
here ends part I. i need to split the post because of some screwed up formatting -.-
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part II:yes, and im finally done with the photos :D it took super long to upload all of them haha! next thing! i met up with dhs people these past few weeks! :D haha on thursday, the day of the prom, i still hadn't gotten my handbag yet, so i dragged dear tzuhsiang out with me to shop for it xD that lazy girl haha! took me ages to convince her to come out, but thank you so much for accompanying me (:
we had loads of fun, talking and shopping! she helped me find my bag and i helped her shop for prom too :D i think now she's in taiwan, will miss her! haha /th, if you're reading this, we still have our zoo outing when you come back okay! :D i love this girl (:
on friday, right after prom, i met cuiting too :D but our macs was being renovated, so we were relocated to tm macs which we hated. there is absolutely no privacy! we talked alot as usual, and then she came over to my house :D she went crazy over the jap videos with me too! :D haha this thursday when she comes over, i bet we won't sleep the entire night xD im looking forward to it! haha
we had class chalet last week! and man, i love 07v14. seriously, they are one of the most memorable class for me. i love everyone inside it, and we had better not lose touch next year! me & daddy were the ones who booked the chalet, so we went down early to check in. and aranda was retarded, cause they said they needed the gold card and stuff, when daddy's card was sufficient. but we still managed to check in, thank God for that.
siling came after that and the two of us were really cozy in the living room! and aranda is just the best chalet i've ever been to. seriously. the place is huge and it is super nice! with an LCD tv. haha me & siling were really comfortable there! it was so big, but so cozy :D the rest came after that and our peace was disrupted xD haha we lazed around the entire time until it was dinner and i had to leave for some stuff. they came to the MRT station to pick me up after that! :D thank you so much, guys :D
we were all really sleepy, but after a bath we were all okay again. and we spent the rest of the night playing polar bear xD no life right, but its a really fun game! haha. me & kw were the two course meal, me being the appetizer & he being the main course! haha. and tim's pink shirt is cursed xD lets not ever let desiree be the moderator. we all died terrible deaths when she was! we played until 4am in the morning, don't ask me how we did that xD its just fun when v14 is together (:
we woke up at like 9 in the morning, and as usual i was one of the last to wake up. but i fell ill! so thats excusable haha. we walked out to get macs breakfast before we continued playing polar bear & indian poker :D it was really sad for me, when i had to leave in the afternoon because well. i wanted to stay over the entire chalet, but im thankful that i could stay over for one night (: and everyone were exchanging notes! it was so sweet (: i really love this class and our refugee camp! refugee camp rocks
and with this ends my long, long post. three weeks packed into one. not bad huh! :D (and not a single mention about jap guys okay! its a miracle :D)
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♥Sunday, November 02, 2008
okay, im updating again, but it isnt something very good.
my grandfather is in critical condition in the hospital now, and we're prepared that he may go anytime. keep him in your prayers please, that he'll go as quickly as possible so that he'll be relieved of the pain that he's going through right now.
im scared, honestly. im scared because of purely selfish reasons, because of this i may not be able to go for prom or for class chalet, and i hate myself because of that. im scared because he isn't saved and now it's too late to reach out to him, and i hate myself because i've had so long to try and reach out to him, but i didnt even bother cause i didnt know teochew that well. i hate myself too because i made the exact same mistake again and now its too late to tell him i love you, or thank you for bringing me up all these years, or just an i'll miss you.
im scared because his funeral is going to be a taoist one, and im really the most scared for that because it's going to be so different from my other grandfather's one which is a christian funeral. and i hate myself for it because i know, and it shows that my faith isnt strong enough. all in all, im just really scared.
chinese olevels on wednesday too. but foremost, please pray for him.
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