yamapi!

♥Thursday, April 24, 2008

my dear bakanishi jin!
i miss you very much ):
maturity has changed you completely
you are still quite baka at times
but not like before
and you're not so forthcoming with your affections
especially with kame
it feels like there's still a wide chasm between the two of you
that time hasnt bridged yet
when will we see the return of akame in your younger days?

i was watching ya-ya-yah's midsummer swimming competition
and you & kame looked so happy & comfortable with each other
when you were singing harukana yakusoku
kame was leaning his head on your shoulder
and you two were pushing each other off your floats
where has that akame gone right now?
i wonder what happened
did you leave kame behind?
did kame leave you behind?
or did you two just grow apart?

and now you & nakamaru are as thick as buddies
but i still dont know about you and kame which makes me really sad
i love nakamaru very much,
but everytime i see you all buddy with nakamaru & not with kame
i feel sad ):

i wonder how kame feels about it
i wonder how you feel about it too
its like after you came back from new york you're a different person?
you dont put as much of yourself into your work anymore
thats the feeling i get
and kame throws himself completely into his work
i bet you knew that when he was shooting nobuta wo produce
he survived on an average of two hours of sleep per day
are you taking care of him properly?
you know how he gets when he throws himself into work completely
he doesnt take a rest or think for himself

now there is so much kokame,
and i feel sad too whenever kokame comes up
but right now,
i think koki is good for kame because he is actually taking care of kame
i wonder if you are?

sorry please ignore my ramblings above
as i know most of you usually do ^^

i decided i shall not do a picspam XD
instead i shall just put one picture haha!
im too lazy to go upload pictures now
plus its late already and im about to doze off
i dont know why but i was extremely tired this morning
i didnt sleep exceptionally late last night either

i think its because of guitar practice yesterday
all of us were extremely tired & exhausted,
but we didnt know why lol
and we got further details for our japan trip! =D
it sounds super fun
i cant wait to go back to japan again!
japannnnnnnn!

日本がとても、とても大好き！
俺が待ている！も少しです　＾＾

please excuse my horrible japanese above >.<
for the one millionth time,
i regret stopping my third lang
but i was given an ultimanium by my parents
actually, i wasnt given a choice in the matter at all
i was forced to drop jap, and it shall be the biggest regret of my life

i know what words to use,
but i just dont know how to string them into sentences
and i realized how tough it is to try to make them into sentences
and now i gotta struggle to teach myself again
nevermind, i shall not give up
for the sake of my japanese boys!
and japan ^^

がんばって、俺！

anyway im starting to love my table mates more and more ^^
we have so much fun crapping during lessons haha
ranon is so much more noob than me! ^^
at least tomorrow there's half day
but the rest of the day is taken up by open house prep urgh

and saturday is open house,
but im leaving early because
my grandfather's niche is ready already (:
so we're going down to faith methodist church
where his ashes are and put them in the proper niche
the collabarium (?) there is really peaceful and quiet

next time when i die too,
i want to be buried there (:
im making plans for the future haha
but i hope it'll be a long, long, long time before it happens
after that we're going to paint ahma's house ^^

i just went on a gokusen 2 craze haha!
because i found a site where all the gokusen 2 stuff are,
the gokusen 2 special reunion which i've been searching for a long time,
and the gokusen 2 special DVD feature ^^

i have no more space in my computer
and my computer is lagging like mad
i hope daddy will let me change my computer soon,
or at least let me reformat it
the speed is driving me nuts
everyday im trying to delete stuff and clear some memory >.<

and now im trying to download all the NEWS, KAT-TUN appearances on shokura
and the songs they sing and put in my zen vision ^^
and NEWS just released their summer time PV!
it is super duper cute, just like their weeek PV ^^
i have a feeling the director just told them to go out there and have fun,
and they did haha
its just like kanjani8's wahaha pv

and i really, really need to clear space on my computer
i shall go clear now ^^
when i got more things to blog about
then i shall do a nice lengthy blog post on it (:
ta!

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