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♥Sunday, October 14, 2007

finally went back to church again
after a loong time-
and im glad i went,
because we got this magazine called
"Hope Xtreme"
and i think its a really good magazine
because it spoke to me,
or rather God used it to speak to me
to get me over & tide me over
this difficult time im facing now

The Rejection Effect

Wanting revenge
It's really easy to get sucked into the revenge game because you want the person who hurt you to hurt the same way you do...or worse! You think it'll make you feel better, but it only creates more problems. Because if you cause others pain, you are no better than they are.

Revenge only kicks off a chain reaction because when you get that person back, he will want to get you back, and pretty soon you have a war of wills that's going nowhere. Who wins? No one!

Jesus said, "You know that you have been taught 'An eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth.' But i tell you not to try to get even with a person who has done something to you."

Dealing with anger
It's okay to feel angry when you're hurt, but if revenge isn't the answer, how do you shake off your anger? The key is to be angry at the person's actions, not at the person. Anger is an emotion, and in time it will go away all by itself unless you are holding a grudge against the person who hurt you.

Jesus said, "But i promise you that if you are angry with someone, you will have to stand trial. If you call someone a fool, you will be taken to court."

Getting rid of a grudge
The best way to purge a grudge is to forgive the person who hurt you. That doesn't mean you agree with what the person did or that you have to trust the person again. Forgiveness just means you're not going to hold a person's actions against him. You've made a decision to get over it. You won't rub it into his face, and you won't try to get back at him.

Sounds like you're letting the offending person off way too easily? Forgiveness is actually the best thing you can do for you. That's because if you keep holding on to the pain after someone hurts you, it will only make you mega-miserable.

Maybe you think the other person doesn't deserve your forgiveness. Well, you're right- he doesn't! No one deserves forgiveness, not even you. But its the best way to go, and you never know when you might need someone's else forgiveness too! Just think about all those times someone has forgiven you, even when you didn't deserve it/

Will I ever be able to trust again?
After you have been rejected, you might be scared to trust anyone else. It takes time for anyone to build trust back up after being totally let down, but as long as you deal with your anger and forgive the one who hurt you, your ability to turst will eventually come back. The key is learning to trust the right people.

* "Treat others as you want them to treat you. This is what the Law and the prophets are all about."

* "Don't condemn others, and God won't condemn you. God will be as hard as you as you are on others! He will treat you exactly as you treat them."

i've been doing a bit of self reflecting
after many things have made me aware
of things that i have never known
and its not going to be easy living
with what i have chosen to do
but im willing to take the first step

God has shown me this article for a reason,
and for once, i will accept it bravely
and follow His Word.

Its not going to be easy, i know
i may disappoint him many times,
and i may disappoint myself
but i will take the first step to finding peace in my heart
and finding space to forgive others

i am not proud of how i've been acting
i've been distancing myself from Him this whole year
he has given me many trials and tribulations
and he's been waiting patiently at one side,
for me to just lower my pride,
forget everything
and just seek him for help

but i've ignored him
i've struggled on with my worldly strength,
strength that will get me nowhere
and i've been continually failing
and exhausting myself

but He's always been waiting at one side for me,
waiting for the day that i face up to my mistakes
and seek him and go back to him
and he has proven faithful
although what he has given me may not be much
but it has given me the strength
to take the first step
towards forgiveness

For He has said:
"He gives power to those who are tired and worn out; he offers strength to the weak. Even youths will become exhausted, and young men will give up. But those who wait on the Lord will find new strenth."
-Isaiah 40:29-31

Its still hard to forgive,
because the wound is still fresh,
and it may take days, weeks or even months,
but with time and with God's strength and guidance
I know i will be able to fully forgive and forget
I want to shine for him
and be an example to the rest of the world
and not be petty and hang on to grudges
like others do
because i have God's peace within me

some may scoff and say that im just spouting bullshit
but that's okay because i know better
and it doesn't matter what they think
or what i appear to them as
because i am proud to be me
and i am proud of my decision
and no one can ever fault me that

i just feel sorry for them
because they've not experienced what i have
and for that, they will never find peace

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