Exams are OVER!!!!!! yay~! haha......im currently slacking right now and its so COOL...haha...and since exams are over, i shall try to blog more often... :)
you know...recently i've been thinking....thanks to dis fren of mine who said I wasnt a very good christian... I was like: oh...im trying to change..... But deep down inside I was like am i so bad that even dis fren who i haven seen in a year said dat im a bad christian?
It seriously got me thinking, and ive realised that i havent put God first in my life. Instead, i put worldly things like anime, books, computer blah before him, and thats not what a christian would do.
Then i borrowed the last few books of the left behind series and through reading them, i realise the amount of love they have for him and my love that i show to him is not even half. I felt really guilty.
Then in church today, tim shared his testimonial and i really listened, instead of like drifting off.
and it really got me thinking (again) and my caregroup time and what anthony said. I realised that all those im a good christian blah is crap and truth is, I havent really been one. its like i havent been spending time with him and havent talked to him. the only time i talk to him is when i need help.
and add on to the disasters happening around the world. everything is happening like in revelations, the last book of the bible. Jesus is coming back again and it is very soon. I've been a christian almost all my life, and i say : yes, im a christian, yes i love God, yes i know he died on the cross for our sins. But today, i realise that actually, im just saying them. I dun act like i really believe them or sth.
its like i felt like i really become a christian now, and the past few years were just a shell or sth. so i will try to be a better christian, spend more time with him, and make him proud of me.
ok, i shall stop now. Ja!
